I have work diligently for over a decade to forgive those who have hurt me in the past whether it was real or an imagined hurt. Every time I think “I have forgiven X,” I find later on that I truly have not.
I believe this is a huge flaw in me and I wish whole hearty to forgive. My mind knows that Buddha was right when he said “Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.”
I truly know that I am hurting myself by not truly forgiving everyone. There is something inside of me that will not let go completely. I know that I am holding myself back from experiencing that best me I can be. I do believe what Paul Boese said “Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future.”
So what do I need to do to let go of that final piece of imagined hurt? I’ve been pondering that for years, then today on Facebook someone posted this quote by Orpah, “True forgiveness is when you can say, “Thank you for that experience.” Wow, that is an eye opener.
So how come I’m not rushing to say “Thank you” to X? At this point I can say the words, but I don’t truly do not feel thankful. I just had a thought; I should do what I’ve been doing since I started on my spiritual journey: pretend until it becomes reality. Or in other words: visualize the possibility, because I know everything created began with a thought.
Life is good! God is great! All is right in my world!