Sometimes I am not proud of my behavior. I work very hard to be positive and to feel joyous, but I have my moments of ugliness and I dip down into the pool of negativity that seems to be everywhere you look. Notice I said dip not wade, swim or wallow. I am well aware it is up to me how I react to what is happening around me and to me, but sometimes I slip up and forget.
For those times I am not acting as spiritually involved as I would like be, there is a famous quote by Pierre Teilhard de Chardin that I try to keep in the front of my mind, “We are not human beings having a spiritual experience; we are spiritual beings having a human experience.” When I have a mini meltdown, I usually can clear the ugly residue by acknowledging that I just had a truly human experience just now. I also hope the spiritual being that is my true self enjoyed that moment or at the very least learned something from it because my human self didn’t. I usually can laugh at the situation by the time I finish with these words, because wasn’t that funny I had a truly earthy human experience.
Yesterday wasn’t one of my better days spiritually speaking. Last night I had a mini meltdown because three different freezer drawers fell out when I tried to retrieve something from the freezer of my side-by-side. I had frozen goods sprawled all over the floor. Once, I had picked up the drawers, I had to finish emptying them, put them back in and reload all the food. I didn’t curse, but I didn’t bless the situation either. I lost my temper with my family, because none of my family members who were in the house checked to see if I needed help. All those containers hitting the floor (luckily not me) made a lot of racket, but no one even called out to ask if I was okay. It just didn’t sit well with me.
I should have been able to laugh at the situation, because it was just a big comedy. Think about it. You open the freezer and what seems like half the contents fall to the floor isn’t that just a slap-stick moment? I certainly should not have yelled at my family. I should have just asked for help. I was too busy being human to remember that I am a spiritual being pretending to be human. I believed my role was my true self.
Maybe I did learn something from the situation after all.
Life is good! God is great! All is right in my world.
Excellent post. What a great quote: “…we are spiritual beings having a human experience.”
Thank you Marie!
Well written post. Just a moment in life to which you are aware. So many miss the detail you captured. This alone allows us connection to others when they have their moments. Maybe, rather than hiding in the other room when we are needed, we will step up, kneel down, lend a hand and praise God.
Thank you for your kind words.
When crazy stuff like this happens I try to remember to say “What is good about this situation?” Usually I will reply, through gritted teeth, “Nothing!!!” then I say, “Yes, that’s true…BUT if there was something good about this situation what would it be?” I would probably ended up saying WOW I have FOOD and it fell out of a refrigerator (how many people in the world have THAT?) and that refrigerator is in a HOUSE…hmmm…a pretty nice, comfortable house, with all the stuff I love…. etc. It eventually makes me start smiling. I had one of those episodes this morning. When I looked around and realized how really blessed my life is in the moment, I snapped out of the yucky poop that seems to serve no purpose…hmmm…maybe the purpose is to ignite a path back to gratitude. Love you Ginie!
Thank you Ana! You have helped me add another layer to my shifting my attention from the negative to the positive. I AM Blessed!
Sounds like thankfully no one is the worse for wear – you weren’t hurt, your family wasn’t hurt and you had a reflective moment that our humanity – in all of its imperfect wonder – is what makes us spiritual and grateful. Have a wonderful day…:-)
I’m out here on the back porch starting my day off right so I know I’m having a wonderful day today. Thank you for commenting, I just love comments.
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I would like to say , I too experience mini meltdowns so do not feel bad.
We are all human.
No one is perfect.
Try to stay positive as much as possible.
All the best, Jenny