Sometimes I am not proud of my behavior. I work very hard to be positive and to feel joyous, but I have my moments of ugliness and I dip down into the pool of negativity that seems to be everywhere you look. Notice I said dip not wade, swim or wallow. I am well aware it is up to me how I react to what is happening around me and to me, but sometimes I slip up and forget.
For those times I am not acting as spiritually involved as I would like be, there is a famous quote by Pierre Teilhard de Chardin that I try to keep in the front of my mind, “We are not human beings having a spiritual experience; we are spiritual beings having a human experience.” When I have a mini meltdown, I usually can clear the ugly residue by acknowledging that I just had a truly human experience just now. I also hope the spiritual being that is my true self enjoyed that moment or at the very least learned something from it because my human self didn’t. I usually can laugh at the situation by the time I finish with these words, because wasn’t that funny I had a truly earthy human experience.
Yesterday wasn’t one of my better days spiritually speaking. Last night I had a mini meltdown because three different freezer drawers fell out when I tried to retrieve something from the freezer of my side-by-side. I had frozen goods sprawled all over the floor. Once, I had picked up the drawers, I had to finish emptying them, put them back in and reload all the food. I didn’t curse, but I didn’t bless the situation either. I lost my temper with my family, because none of my family members who were in the house checked to see if I needed help. All those containers hitting the floor (luckily not me) made a lot of racket, but no one even called out to ask if I was okay. It just didn’t sit well with me.
I should have been able to laugh at the situation, because it was just a big comedy. Think about it. You open the freezer and what seems like half the contents fall to the floor isn’t that just a slap-stick moment? I certainly should not have yelled at my family. I should have just asked for help. I was too busy being human to remember that I am a spiritual being pretending to be human. I believed my role was my true self.
Maybe I did learn something from the situation after all.
Life is good! God is great! All is right in my world.