Listening to God
Once I was firmly on the path to being a positive force for good, I felt the need to get right with God. I had spent years being ticked off at God, because my life wasn’t meeting my expectations and well I wasn’t getting what I felt was my due. I was so spiritually immature that I thought that God owed me, because I had put up with a lot of crud in my life.
I perceived my life as one blow after another; all effecting my spirit, my heart, my mind and to my physical being. There didn’t seem to me much good happening between each blow, so I changed from a giggling child who always had a smile to an adult full of rage and who always had something sarcastic to say. I didn’t understand that the old saying “It’s all good” was true. I was living in a black and white world; either it was bad or good; there was no in-between grayness. What a horrible way to live.
Being ticked off at God, because I wasn’t getting what I wanted,wasn’t working so I while I worked on my attitude. I started talking with God instead of at God. I would have liked being able to tell you that I listened to God and did what I was directed to do, but I cannot make that claim; at least right away. It was nearly a decade after I opened up and started having chats with God, before I realized that labeling every experience in one of two categories, good or bad, was holding me back from having spiritual growth. It’s ALL good.
Sometimes it takes years before I learn the reason why a particular situation needed to happen. In other posts I’m sure I’ll talk about some of these insights. I wrote a journal entry in April 2012 called “The Gift” that gives an example of a situation that very easily fit into the “bad” label, but it turned out to be totally “good.”
Life is good! God is great! All is right in my world.